New Year's ramble

I am in a funk, okay maybe not a real funk but I feel like I have so much to accomplish so many books to read, and planning to do before this baby arrives. But, somehow with all that's looming I just want to snuggle under a blanket:) I guess with the New Year's arrival and the cold temps it's easier to want to decompress and just "be".

I watch the boys with their simplicity, they wake up with no set agenda for their day and are happy with pretty much whatever is thrown at them. I wonder when we loose that and why? What a great quality to keep into adulthood. Alfred has maintained that carefree whatever my day may bring attitude. It makes me jealous sometimes that his mental picture can blow like the wind depending on the needs of those around him. It truly is one his most amazing qualities and so opposite from my rigid plan each second mentality. That's why we are a good match I suppose our children are exposed to both and hopefully won't be too far one way or the other. Oh goodness I am rambling aren't I? I guess it's just that type of day:)

A great day

I am grateful my family was able to travel to Memphis to be with Mom and Dad this Christmas, despite the fact Alfred's plane was cancelled on Christmas Eve and he didn't make it until Christmas Day. Even that small snag didn't change how wonderful and how many memories we made this year. The boys are still talking about how much fun they had with Uncle Gabe, Aunt Amy, Ethan and baby Evan. We haven't all been together in over 2 years so this was long overdue.

I am so proud of my boys and even though they don't always make choices that please me or God I know that they are being formed into amazing men that will follow God and His leading. Their personalities are mystifying and dumbfound me at times. I am overwhelmed again to be their Mom and to have so many opportunities to love on them and tell them how I adore them. We are home now and today was one of those rare and perfect days that they might not remember but I won't forget. We didn't get out of our jammies from sun-up to sun-down. Alfred worked and played in Bear's room the ENTIRE day getting all the lego ships and buildings just so. He was so completely unselfish with his time and his attention it was fantastic to watch. Brock snuggled for a long nap in my bed and we watch a movie and made up silly songs. It was indeed perfect. This is a day I want to look back on when they are teenagers and are busy, too busy growing up to hang with me.

God knew I needed these little men first in my life to strengthen my own faith and my own view of God as a man and still God. What perfection He adds to each of our lives, it's just up to us to seek it out. What does God want to show us this new year? What does He want to show us about ourselves through our children? Don't think for a minute that your children aren't there as a tool to teach you about the glory of God. He is in ALL things, and He uses ALL opportunities to shine!