Post-Op

As I sit here no make that lay here I am recovering from surgery on my ACL. It went very well and now I have a graph that is healing nicely or at least I pray hourly it is healing nicely. This last week has been on of dependence and complete reliance on "other" people. For anyone that knows me well that isn't easy. My children have been in the care of someone other than myself, my own physical needs even to the extent of going to the bathroom have been aided by other person, and all my day to day task to take care of "my" family are in the hands of someone other than me. So as I am evaluate this what does God want me to glean from this time of dependence on others. I am open to Him completely right now and I am listening. Of course there are some obvious things, trust in only Him to take care and provide for me, time to "stop" and listen to Him but I am looking deeper at the thing that maybe isn't so obvious that only God could teach me during a time of struggle such as this. I want to learn and be teachable and I want to come out of this full of joy and patience. I desire my children to see a Mom who knows Jesus is the only one that restores and heals our broken bodies and He alone can sustain us when we are powerless.  I know this is a unique time that I will one day look back on and be thankful, right now it's not so easy to sing praises but it will come.....just like my knee healing.....with time.